As some of you may know, my Grandmother has been in hospital recently (she is still in actually.)
This started out in mid July with pneumonia. It feels like every time she beats something and starts to get better, something else happens to her.
She is currently battling an internal bleed.
She is quite a fighter, she’s 93 but she doesn’t give up.
Anyway, that’s just a bit of background to why I feel guilty.
When I’m at the hospital, I feel guilty because I’m not at work and someone else is covering my shift (she has had a few close calls where I had to take unplanned time off).
When I’m at work, I feel guilty because I should be at the hospital.
The hospital she is in is a another town, so it is not worth coming home between the two visiting sessions, so we end up hanging around the hospital for 2-3 hours waiting to go back in. This makes the day seem extremely long. I then feel guilty for moaning about waiting around, after all, my Grandmother isn’t moaning and she’s stuck there 24/7 plus has all this horrible stuff happening to her.
On a rational level, I know the guilt is pointless, but it doesn’t stop me feeling it.
The eternal joker of the world got me today though. I made the mistake of saying “I wish I had just one day where I didn’t have to go to work or to the hospital.” And yes I felt guilty thinking that let alone saying it out loud. So today, I woke up with a lovely stomach bug and had to call in sick and not to go to the hospital.
It’s true what they say: be careful what you wish for!
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Oh dear I hope you feel better soon.
Thank you 🙂
That sucks – hope you feel better with the stomach bug soon. In a way, at least you are getting the rest you need by not going to the hospital. 🙂 #abitofeverything
I feel much better now thank you 🙂 I guess that’s one way of looking at it lol!
oh dear I hope you feel better soon! Don’t feel guilty, take a rest! I hope your grandma isn’t feeling to bad. #abitofeverything
I’m ok now! Thank you 🙂
I am much better now! Thank you 🙂
Oh no! Hope you feel better soon and your Grandma battles through. Lots of love. #abitofeverything
Thank you 🙂
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings – we’re only human and we can only do what is humanly possible. I feel the same way when I have time off at work for a family commitment, especially when it is very busy at work. But we have to do what we have to do. Hope all goes well for you. Thanks for linking with #abitofeverything — PS that quote doesn’t seem to work for Cake??
That’s true and on a rational level I know I’m being daft! The girls I work with have all been very supportive too 🙂 Thank you for hosting.
The cake thing, that’s a fair point – if you wish for cake and get it that’s only ever a good thing lol 🙂